Last week I was energized, moving forward at a decent pace. The first Holliday bazar is booked for mid- October. Three more are waiting on call backs to secure spots. My first meeting with my SCORE counselor, Mr. J (counseling assistance for the business plan) was helpful. He is a knowledgeable, seasoned, and easy to talk to guy. He has directed several hundred, startups, with four successful ventures. Sounds good right?
Here’s the thing…Mr. J told me I was off to a good start. I thought I was running for a touchdown. How disappointing to be told that now the work starts. Well what have I been doing? He started talking forecasting, three year projections, salaries, some kind of margin for tracking money…huh? As he talked, fear rose up. Can we say STARK TERROR! What do I know about this stuff? I fought not to break out in a cold sweat; I would have blamed it on menopause. In that moment I knew we would work together well. He allowed me to pretend to be calm. The entire time I was thinking “Who the heck do I think I am anyway? This is already more than my first visions. What makes me think I can do this? Is this delusion at work? “ The man was paralyzing me and seemed (by his comfortable steady smile) not to realize it!
Please no platitudes or faith filled scripture quotes. I am in a delicate spot at this moment. I would give them to you, but can’t take them today. Do you have some cheese to go with my whine?
I am leaving you with words of wisdom, (repeatedly learned the hard way). Be careful what you ask for.
My question to you is; when you feel inadequate for the challenge, what makes you take the next step?
Thanks for reading. Your answer this week is greatly anticipated.
Anxious but determined